Friday, March 22, 2013

Then.....and now.

I was going through all my CD's to see what I could ditch and came across this that I had written in 2005 in the midst of a really traumatic "Church" time....   

How have You loved me?      (John 13:34)

 What kind of love is this….
                      That has no complications
                                                            ‘ifs’ and no ‘buts’,
                                                  an unconditional love….
                                                       Its all ‘in spite of’
                                                 and not ‘because of ‘ us.

                 What kind of love is this….
                          That knows me so completely  —-
                                               When I Walk,
                                                      When I sit,

                                                                 And when I stand –
                                                 who has me in the palm of His hand.

 What kind of love is this…
                     That loves me through insecurities,
                                                             fears   and     a n x i e t i e s

                            Who sees all that I can be – so continues to bring change in me.

What kind of love is this…
That forgives every thoughtless word …
                                               Every selfish plan devised….
                                                                   Every action unrequired….
                                                                                 Every lust and flesh desire?

 What kind of love is this…..
                      That knows every hurtful word received
                                        and then each bitter thought conceived

                                And YOU challenge me – 
                                                     Just Love...     and let it go.

 I give you the hurtful words received,
                             the doubts and disappointments,
                                              the unmet expectations, anxieties and frustrations…

 and I ask You Lord –   May I love as unconditionally
                                                        And forgive without exception
                                                                   May I accept others as they are
                                                                              Understanding our imperfections.

In short Father………Help me love others as You have loved me.

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Reading this now I am just so overwhelmed with how faithful God has been in the years since. As traumatic as it was, He used that painful time to bring me into a freedom I may never have known otherwise, so I am thankful for it.

I came across this Thomas Merton quote today...
"The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to to twist them to fit our own image. Otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them."

Thought provoking words from a guy who had lots of wise things to say...


  1. Ah, yes......this too is my prayer. Thanks Lis!

  2. Wonderful words by Merton.
    And gosh yes, nothing like having a few years to look back from (after a time of trauma) to see how amazingly God has worked with us and for us.

  3. PS: I'm going to swipe that quote and post it to FB - so lots of other people can have the benefit of it too, ok?
    May it travel from status to status . . .

  4. I love this...would make such a beautiful song to Him.


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