Then.....and now.

I was going through all my CD's to see what I could ditch and came across this that I had written in 2005 in the midst of a really traumatic "Church" time....   

How have You loved me?      (John 13:34)

 What kind of love is this….

                      That has no complications

                                                                    No

                                                            ‘ifs’ and no ‘buts’,

                                                  an unconditional love….
                                                       Its all ‘in spite of’

                                                 and not ‘because of ‘ us.

                 What kind of love is this….

                          That knows me so completely  —-

                                               When I Walk,

                                                      When I sit,

                                                                 And when I stand –

                                                 who has me in the palm of His hand.

 What kind of love is this…

                     That loves me through insecurities,

                                                             fears   and     a n x i e t i e s

                            Who sees all that I can be – so continues to bring change in me.

What kind of love is this…

That forgives every thoughtless word …

                                               Every selfish plan devised….

                                                                   Every action unrequired….

                                                                                 Every lust and flesh desire?

 What kind of love is this…..

                      That knows every hurtful word received

                                        and then each bitter thought conceived

ALL OF THESE THINGS YOU SEE…

                                And YOU challenge me – 
                                                     Just Love...     and let it go.

     …So...

 I give you the hurtful words received,

                             the doubts and disappointments,

                                              the unmet expectations, anxieties and frustrations…

 and I ask You Lord –   May I love as unconditionally

                                                        And forgive without exception

                                                                   May I accept others as they are

                                                                              Understanding our imperfections.

In short Father………Help me love others as You have loved me.

* * * * 

23.3.13

Reading this now I am just so overwhelmed with how faithful God has been in the years since. As traumatic as it was, He used that painful time to bring me into a freedom I may never have known otherwise, so I am thankful for it.

I came across this Thomas Merton quote today...
"The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to to twist them to fit our own image. Otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them."

Thought provoking words from a guy who had lots of wise things to say...

Tuesdays Laugh

Still in Genesis, the group last night were looking at the animals getting into the ark.  We discovered that God brought the animals TO Noah, he didn't go and herd them into the Ark. (Gen. 7:8,9)

At this point one of the guys said, "Just as well because all the female of the species would have been running late", to which I could not resist the reply, ".... and the men of the species would get lost and refuse to ask for directions!"

It's great to know that God has a sense of humour and probably had a good laugh with us!

Lots of Nothing

I keep opening up a page and wanting to write.  Something. Anything....
The blank screen stares mockingly back at me.

I figured I would get my own back and just post a pic. That should shut up the whiteness of the screen.
For now anyway.